„Blue” oil on icon panel, 50/70cm, 20/27,5 inch, 2015

This is the first of cycle three paintings about „be / have”.

Blue is the last of colors obtained in natural way, and for a long time more expensive than gold. Apparently in the old days price of painting depended on the quantity of the blue pigment. I also remember from history of art lessons, that such artists as Leonardo da Vinci where able to juxtapose colors,in such a way that cheaper replacement, seemed to be the most expensive ultramarine. As you might guess, blue was also the first color obtained synthetically. This color has many meanings in culture, somewhere it is color of the gods, elsewhere – mourning, or purity.

The blue color intrigued me some time ago. I began to think about different facets of that color. We know: „feel blue”, „blue blood”, blue food, out of the blue and lot of more. Reflections on the blue, led me to the fact, that there are almost no blue edible things (naturally blue). This color, in the context of foods, we associate with something inedible, tasteless, unpalatable, rotten. Even tasty apple, but covered with blue, seem to be less tasty.

So we have beautiful, loved, precious the color blue, but not in food. Then I imagined this color, as if it was a child, with „problem”. Child making „the drama” that he/she want to be tasty food. Imagine a scene of tears, screams, rolling on the floor, and lot of „Mom, I want it”. Sometimes, no matter how great drama we do, or how much effort we put into getting something, we just will not have it.

Especially now in the culture where „want” is same as „could” and ” be able to”, we know that to get something, you need to try, to fight for it. We live in the belief that everything is possible, just work enough hard. Do not get me wrong, I do believe in it, and I think that it usually is true, furthermore I think that we should behave like it was a rule. BUT sometime, in spite of everything, we do not get what we want, and we have to know how to survive it too. This painting is about one of the most important things we usually learn as a child, about the fact, that we do not always get what we want. Sometimes everywhone have something what we want, only we don’t, and about that it is not the end of the world.